hopeless manifestations

I love someone that will never love me the way I want him to

I can't stop loving him because I have tried

It's as if he as this ever present ambiance

and I'm caught in it

When I see him I lose all control of myself

I am no longer in my state of mind

My senses become a seperate entity

My heart slows down from it's usual rhythm

I hear nothing

I see nothing, but him

When he looks at me, I smile

When he smiles at me, I smile

When he touches me, I smile

I hate when he has control over me like this

But he doesn't know that he does

and I will never let him know

The problem is that I won't stop it

I don't try to alter the way my heart reacts to him

I love it

I love him

It's as if my heart understands that he is part of "it"

That he holds a piece of my heart

and when my heart beat slows down

it is only because the piece that he holds beats also

and so my heart isn't skipping a beat

he is only completing it for me

He delights me

But he knows how to piss me off so much

So

I know that he loves me

but because of the person he is

I know that he would never be able to duplicate my love

so why do I continue to allow myself to be upsetted

If I know that this is as good as it gets